Another late night post from this woman seeking sleep! Well today was a pretty good day overall, I realized that I had set my goal level for my calorie counter to high cause I could barely eat the amount of calories it wanted me to. So I haven't mentioned yet, but I am using My Fitness Pal to count calories and track my exercise cause I have tried lots of diets and none of them work, but thats a blog post for another day! Maybe tomorrow actually.... I don't know we'll see. But tonight I want to talk about how I felt super crappy about myself today when trying to find something to wear and I tried on about 5 different things, you know like in those movie montages? yea that was me today! Anyway I finally found something I thought was cute, but I didn't really know if it was like fashionable, and I try really hard to be fashionable because my whole life I miss the mark by a little bit! So I texted my fam bam and asked them what they thought and they all thought it was really cute and that I need to let go and enjoy the outfit today. So I did! I added some cute wedges and I was out the door! I know what you're thinking wedges in February? well folks, it felt like spring was here and in full swing today so I broke out my wedges and floral print with a pink top and I felt pretty good. I was still tugging at my shirt and hiking up my pants and I felt like nothing fit me and that I probably looked like I was trying way to hard. I walked into a class and everyone loved it, they didn't spend forever talking about it or anything but a simple cute outfit, or you look good and I just felt great! You know its true what they say, that dressing nice makes you carry yourself different and most of the times for the better. Now don't get me wrong dressing up means something different for everyone so I'm not saying that every woman needs to put on a dress and heels to feel great, I just mean every woman needs to dress up every once in a while in what she feels confident and strut her stuff! We all deserve too. Of course my wonderful boyfriend was just dying over my look today and he couldn't stop saying how pretty I looked and how beautiful I was.... which lets be real doesn't hurt at all! Bottom line is that today I was able to stop hating on myself and the way my body looks right now and dress it in something flattering that made everyone notice me in the clothes not the clothes on my body.
I think this is a good place to stop before I get into my whole history of self hating and constantly wanting to change, but get ready for a long blog post tomorrow cause we will be going down the rabbit whole... but we'll emerge on the other end better for it, at least I will!
~ Woman Seeking Self Love
Tuesday, February 7, 2017
Day Ruiner or Game Changer?
Today I got a text from my boyfriend saying that he had spilled water on his laptop and will have to get his screen replaced. I immediately thought that this was it, today was gonna be a bad day for the both of us. We're both trying to save money for various things, one being a really nice trip sometime in April, sort of like a couples retreat! So when he found out he had to sink close to $700 into fixing his computer you can imagine he was none to happy. The first thing he said was "no fun money" and immediately felt so bad because he is the type of guy he wants to provide everything he can for me and treat me to whatever I want even when I don't need it. I told him not to worry about a thing and that we would find amazing date night ideas that won't cost a thing! We had little to no communication through out the evening because of his work and I knew that work would be rough tonight and I was honestly worried that he was going to come home really upset with himself and rather angry, but to my surprise he was just exhausted... no other feelings attached except that. I met him at the door like an excited puppy and squeezed him as tight as I could to let him know that everything was going to be great! We then talked for a little bit and this is when I came up with the idea for this blog post... he said that he isn't mad at himself he doesn't feel anything about the situation he just feels okay. He accepted the position he is in will make it work! So he didn't let this, lets be honest, rather big expense and thing to ruin his day he made it a game changer in his life. A new challenge if you will! To live life to the fullest, but on a very tight budget! To make his girlfriend happy (which he does by just cuddling with me and watching a movie or sitting in silence with good conversation breaking that silence) without spending any money! And to save everything he earns unless its on food and gas!
Tonight I realized that even when times get hard instead of taking the easy way and becoming angry or sad, take the high road and find something good to focus on instead or find the lesson you've learned and move on. For my boyfriend, I think he'll be buying a new case the second he gets his computer back. As for me, I learned that I have the most incredible boyfriend who no matter how hard his day is he is always happy to see me and talk about his day.
~ Woman Seeking Game Changers
Tonight I realized that even when times get hard instead of taking the easy way and becoming angry or sad, take the high road and find something good to focus on instead or find the lesson you've learned and move on. For my boyfriend, I think he'll be buying a new case the second he gets his computer back. As for me, I learned that I have the most incredible boyfriend who no matter how hard his day is he is always happy to see me and talk about his day.
~ Woman Seeking Game Changers
Sunday, February 5, 2017
POV
POV thats a very interesting place to start for me. Point of view... we all have one, as an actor I have several on different occasions I have hundreds just to get a point across. My personal point of view, as a 20 year old junior in college? My life needs to change. Thats my point of view on everything, whether it be for the better or not I know my life needs to change. It's 10:30 on a Sunday night and I am making a blog because I want to document my change, let me rephrase that, I need to document my change because I need to know that someone may be keeping up with me and wanting to know where I am in my life. Now don't get me wrong I have the greatest friends and family, a wonderful boyfriend and an amazing support group of sisters, but there is something about having complete strangers reading what I write and wanting to know how my progress is going! So tonight at 10:30 on a Sunday I am going to give y'all my starting point. My base line if you will.
I am 20 years old, I am a junior in college, I weigh 205 lbs, I had my left hip labrum torn and repaired at the age of 15, I am 5" 5', I have gone on several diets, I am tired all the time, I tend to be negative, and I can't keep my house clean... I think that about covers it, you'll learn more about me as I write, oh! and before any of you grammar folks get angry, yes I am aware that I don't know how to write grammatically correct. I've struggled with that for years and still can't get it; so if you are gonna stick with me prepare yourself for run-ons, fragments, comma splices, and a slue of other things I probably didn't know were wrong.
I entitled my blog Woman Seeking Wonderful for a number of reasons, one being that I thought it was catchy and cute, but two, because thats exactly what I want. I want to find the wonderful things of every day life, the joys that it brings, the troubles, and the hardships too, but I want to find a way to make my negative POV and turn it into a positive one. I want to take life by the reigns and take control.
Starting tonight I will be blogging everyday keeping y'all up to date with my weight loss goals and mile markers, my unhappy days that I've managed to make brighter, the cute stories of my boyfriend and I, the hardships of being on the cusp of adulthood, but still not taken seriously and all that may come with it. I hope that everyone reading this is ready for the journey thats ahead because I know that I am!
- Woman Seeking A New POV
I am 20 years old, I am a junior in college, I weigh 205 lbs, I had my left hip labrum torn and repaired at the age of 15, I am 5" 5', I have gone on several diets, I am tired all the time, I tend to be negative, and I can't keep my house clean... I think that about covers it, you'll learn more about me as I write, oh! and before any of you grammar folks get angry, yes I am aware that I don't know how to write grammatically correct. I've struggled with that for years and still can't get it; so if you are gonna stick with me prepare yourself for run-ons, fragments, comma splices, and a slue of other things I probably didn't know were wrong.
I entitled my blog Woman Seeking Wonderful for a number of reasons, one being that I thought it was catchy and cute, but two, because thats exactly what I want. I want to find the wonderful things of every day life, the joys that it brings, the troubles, and the hardships too, but I want to find a way to make my negative POV and turn it into a positive one. I want to take life by the reigns and take control.
Starting tonight I will be blogging everyday keeping y'all up to date with my weight loss goals and mile markers, my unhappy days that I've managed to make brighter, the cute stories of my boyfriend and I, the hardships of being on the cusp of adulthood, but still not taken seriously and all that may come with it. I hope that everyone reading this is ready for the journey thats ahead because I know that I am!
- Woman Seeking A New POV
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